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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

My conversation.


Since I have time and it's almost fresh in my mind, I'll tell you about my conversation with my dad yesterday.


Well, in a nutshell, I made him promise to get better better. Not temporarily better. He said "Oh, I am! Don't you worry! I'm getting better!"


But I've heard that tone before. It's fake. I don't beleive him, I really don't. He uses that fake enthusiasm to make people beleive him. Next time I talk to him, I'm going to let him know what I feel. Everything. He said everything's his fault, it is. I'm going to tell him that I don't trust him, I don't beleive him, and he may never, EVER gain that trust back. It doesn't mean I don't loe him, and it doesn't mean that I'm angry at him. Yes, I AM angry at him, but that's my problem. At this aprticular time I can only think he's trying to change to get back to us. He should be changing for him first, us second.


You know, I'm just sick of him changing for a little bit, then when we think he's better, he goes right back to treating us like piles of shit. It's made me think about who I can trust, and how tolerant of people I really am.

And this makes me so upset that if I eat alot, alot as in, almost nearly satisfied, I get sick.

3 comments:

Sarah Jean said...
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Sarah Jean said...

Trust, that is an interesting thing.

Takes so long to build- sometime though, it comes naturally- like a child and a parent.

once trust is broken, it is terribly hard to rebuild. I think that the natural trust is the hardest to reconstruct, simply because it should have never ever been broken in the first place.

Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you and your dad. I think that's all I can do over this distance, but don't forget how powerful prayer is, and how many people are praying for you and your dad. "Pray continually".