Go spend a week with my dad. I told her NO. after alot of talking, she told me to think about it. I have, and I'm not going. I DO NOT want to see him. My brother does. I am so angry at him....I cna't even think about it without crying, and she wants me to SEE him?? I mean...he abused her in ways, and she wants me to SEE him?! After all that shit he pulled, she wants me to see him. I don't WANT to see him, I don't even want to TALK to him! She said I should write a letter. Oh, and what would it say? That if he fucks up this time, I'll never be seen again? Because if he comes back and shits on our life again, I swear to God, I will run away, move away, whatever, however I old I am depends. I will disappear. Without a trace. Because I can't live like that. And if the rest of my family can, then I won't be around to watch them die. And he doesn't have to lay a hand on them to kill them.
*sighs*
My mother's right. I am an angry person. And I hate to admit that. even though I've known it all this time.
I, Kayla, am an angry person.
And in admitting that, I feel a little better.
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It's a start kiddo. I ask you, beg you, please PLEASE find someone to talk to about this, the way you feel, the anger. Doesn't have to be someone from your church, could be any pastor from any church, please, just find someone. I don't want you to let that anger fester. It WILL become a poison that can ruin your life.
I will pray for you hon, constantly.
scott
Kayla, you can find victory from this anger. Ask Jesus to take it from you!
I haven't met a teenager yet that wasn't angry at something.
It's a good thing to acknowledge your anger. Look it in the eye (so to speak), know that it's there, and know that you control it, not the other way around :) Then you can move along with the business of getting things done.
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