I'm so tired of being overlooked.

I'm tired of people telling me "Kayla, be quiet." and "Kayla, just stop talking."
Does anyone ask WHY I talk nonsense, or if there's something on my mind? No. There are only 2 people in this world that I truly think care about me, and that's my little brother Trevor and my friend Josh.

Everyone else is just....frustrating!

I'm TIRED of holding everything in all of the time! I DON'T FEEL LOVED! I never have! And it infuriates me because I'm always there for other people when they need me, and they hug me "Oh Kayla your'e a good friend." and when I need something and come to them, they make it awkward. "Oh, well, I dont' know what to do." Just LISTEN. Be there. When I fall apart, you don't have to put me back together, just hug the pieces and I'll come together on my own.
And I'm sick and TIRED of people telling me what to do. I'm not allowed to get a job, I can't move out, I can't do this, BLAH BLAH BLAH. I'm almost 18, I need more freedom! I'm really trying to be more responsible, but sometimes I just forget stuff. And when I try to give my opinion about something, people make me feel stupid and call me a dumbass. And YES TREVOR I JUST CUSSED. Deal with it. You're NOT my father, mother or any other person that has authority over me. Suck it.

I'm sooo tired of people telling me what I can and can't do and making me feel horrible. If I even TRY to stick up for myself, they yell at me and make me feel like I did something wrong. It's like the people around me have all turned into Lon. I cna't escape him. I don't knwo what to do. He's in my dreams, in my daily life. I'm about to give up becuase no matter what, he wins. Everyone always wins except for me.

And of course, the problem won't be with the masses, the people around me, it's always the individual, because I'm outnumbered, and if more than one person is telling you something's wrong, there must be.

I just wanna give up. People have stopped telling me to not give up because they think that everything is fine now. Well it's not. Nobody wantas to hear Kayla cry, becuase if Kayla cries, what happens to their therapist?

I hate everyone right now. If you're reading this, you're included, so don't even ask