Well, tomorrow it happens. I leave for dallas. tomorrow I'll see my sister for the first time in 5 years. Saturday I'll see Josh and I'll register for American Idol. If not, then sunday, lol. But then Monday I'll try out. Sing. I just...have so many doubts. But it feels so right, I've been praying for so long about this, and all signs have pointed to "go". I'm just afraid I'm being set up for failure. I don't mind learning lessons, but I hate the pain that comes along with them. And the disappointment.
I can sing. I KNOW I can! And others seem to think so too. So why am Iso doubtful of myself? And WHY did we move to a place with CARPET and I have allergies now?
I'm so mad. I hate being by myself. My bro's at a friend's house and my mom's at work. And I don't like spending time alone with the new person. I jsut don't feel comfortable around them yet. I mean, they're not bad or mean, I'm just not used to them yet. I dunno. I'm just...out of sorts and so nervous!!!
Thursday, August 02, 2007
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